Closing Chapter...

In the hopes that I could come back to your caring umbrella, to take care of my financial dilemma, I took the courage of asking. It took a lot of time for me to gather all my courage because of pride. But I did manage to swallow and ask. It was too overwhelming to have known that even after a year, they value the kind of work I once gave them. They welcomed me with open arms. There was even a small cheerful debate to which group I'd be placed.

Almost 2 months of waiting, sadly, I learned tonight that it will and cannot happen anymore due to some circumstance. Heart-broken as I am, I had to accept. I cried hard but in my heart, I know, that's what's meant to happen and I am meant to be somewhere else.

I am still crying now. Going through the lines as this chapter ends, I am somewhat excited, knowing that I'll soon be turning the page onto the next chapter. A friend once quoted a statement from the movie "Tangled" uttered by Eugene when Rapunzel asked him what is going to happen after achieving (or not achieving) one's dream... "that's the best part", he said, "so you can have another dream". At least now I'm sure, it is an ended chapter.

With this I also learned that in life, there really is no turning back. We only move forward... We keep moving forward... - meet the robinsons-

What's meant to be will always find a way.

I read from one blog that the 'Chairman' has a blueprint of everyone's destiny. Regardless of the options and decisions, they all lead to one solid end: the one that the Chairman has laid upon us.

I am such a fan of signs. Signs are clues to where you should go, what path you should take. And as a fan, I say, that I once have ignored it and regret because it led me to the path that has a lot of turns, trials and errors, long way to simply put it. But in my heart, I know that our God is in charge. I always believed that everything happens for a reason and that soon, everything will be alright. Sometimes, you really have to learn things the hard way. I tried to somewhat, manipulate things just so I could be on the easy track, but NO. There's no turning back.

Last month, I made a decision to go back to where I thought I made a mistake and possibly get back on track. I finally decided and took action and was glad that it gave positive feedback. I thought back then, in a few weeks, I'll be holding the projection I created in my mind in the hopes of making my life better, financially. But it has not progress from there.

Now, while everything was happening there, we were doing something here and I am happy to say, that we have started a business that is in line with our passion. Talking about happiness and time. This may not be what I had planned or created in mind to happen, but this could still be the way to reach what I was hoping. This may or may not be it, but we have to make something out of it. It has been our dream to have our own business, the one that we truly love and would enjoy working on. The business is not all ours but its a start.

I guess, what I am trying to point out is, it's God's will where I am now. And in God's own time and guiding, will I find my way. I never want to let it be. But I am letting it while I browse the so-called blueprint of life and destiny to try and find which way He is leading me to.