A Mother's Heart, A Sister's Love

Not long ago, the battle began.  I was in pain but I did not question, why? All I know, is that this will soon be over.  I wanted it to be over so badly that I make my own research, consider different treatment and insists on doing them.  I asked the Lord, for guidance, courage, strength, healing... but why does it seem so long?

"No.", I said.  I should never give up.  I will do everything in my powers to ensure that healing will be awarded.  I prayed so hard as I always do. But now, I prayed even more for this is something that I could not let go, just like that.

But then, after a very critical argument, I had my realization.

This is not my battle.  It is my sisters'.  

I love her so much and like a mother to her daughter, motherly care came out.  I couldn't bear to just sit and wait.  And like any mother would do to one stubborn child, I had to make my voice heard. I am so sorry we got into that argument just because  I wanted to do all sorts of things that will lead to her healing.  But the Lord knows I can only do as much, I don't.   I didn't realize that I was pushing her so much.   I wanted to do everything for her.  That if it's even possible to take her place, I would.  But, help will only be as effective, if there is willingness to be helped.  She has to find her way out of this battle, not through hearing my voice or her family's,  but His.

I was so blinded by the objective that I wanted to do, by the love I have for her and by the fear of losing her that I didn't see the love of God for her and the objective that He wanted to do in her life.  I kept on telling her that, but I seemed to have forgotten.  Now, I will continue to support her in everything that she need.  I have never given up on her, I will continue to pray for her, but I think my part is done.

From hereon, Lord, I surrender all my thoughts, my fears. I give you my full trust. 

Thy will,be done.

Hebrews 10:35-36

Happy Mother's Day!

When God made a woman, He made it special.

He made her shoulders strong enough to carry 

the weight of the world, yet,

made her arms gentle enough to give comfort...

He gave her the inner strength

to endure childbirth 

and the rejection that many times will come

even from her own children.

He gave her a hardness that will allow her

to keep going and take care of her family and friends,

even when everyone else gives up,

through sickness and fatigue without complaining..

He gave her the sensitivity to love her children

under any and all circumstances.

Even when her child has hurt her badly..

She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears..

He gave her strength to care for her husband

despite faults

A woman who is fashioned from his rib

to protect his heart..

He gave her wisdom to know that a good husband 

never hurts his wife, but,

sometimes tests her strength and her resolve

to stand beside him unfalteringly..

For all this hard work, 

He also gave her a tear to shed.

It is hers to use whenever needed

It is her only weakness...

When you see her cry,

tell her how much you love her, 

and all she does for everyone

and even though she may still cry,

you will have made her heart feel good.

Always make your mom feel loved and special.

- c/o indianchild.com